Saturday, August 6, 2011

Changing it up.

So here I am....just finished destroying my arms with a great workout.   Now I'm doing the elliptical.  God, I hate cardio, but I know I must come to love it.  How else will I get this weight off I put back on?  I wont.  As much as I change my diet (every other week it seems) I know I have to get the cardio in or else it will he the same story.

It was just over two years ago I competed in the NPC Arizona bodybuilding show.  I did terrible in the show, but I lost over 60lbs for it.  I went from 242 down to 177 for weigh-ins.  My fault for depleting too hard the last week as I should have went on stage as a light-heavyweight instead of middle-weight, but that's another story.  Here I am two years later and back to 255.  What the hell!  Am I just meant to be his heavy?  I know I have a large frame for my height, but here I am once again.

It has been a dieting rollercoaster my entire life.  I remember getting into lifting heavy in high-school.  I was one of the shorter guys, but one of the strongest.  By my sophomore year I was benching over 200lbs and squatting 405 for reps.  After my sophomore year I decided football wasn't for me and concentrated on my lifting.   I wanted to bodybuild.  By end of senior year I was benching 315 and maxing out at 515 on squats.  I was 5'5 and weighed about 190 lbs.  I thought lifting and staying in shape was what I would do the rest of my life.  I was wrong and right at the same time.

I was always taught as a bodybuilder to eat as much food as I could throughout the day.  This of course led to overeating.  I was big though....and pretty strong.  Everytime it would be time for me to "diet" I would only last a few weeks and decide to "bulk" up again.  Next thing I know I'm sitting at about 275lbs.  I was fat, strong, and I looked just rediculous.  Got away from the bodybuilding at that point.  Tried dieting but I couldn't stop eating....well eating the right things to lose the weight.  Then it happened....between graduating from Arizona State in 2004 and starting my career I was....301lbs.  I didn't even see it happening.  Eating had become emotional for me.  I would eat to cope with the stress of life.  I did it then and am continuing to do it now.

Here it is.  In November I am finishing my MBA and walking at the graduation.  My goal is to drop at least 30lbs by then.  Diet starts tomorrow.  This time I will not fail, but the goal is to eat healthy from this point forward.  I need to learn how to diet without dieting.  So I am incorporating proteins, good fats, and good carbohydrates.  There is no stopping me and I will not let anything get in my way. 

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Fun vacation except....

Just got home bout 30 mins ago from Huntington Beach CA.  Went with my g/f her kids and her brother
  It was nice to get out of the heat of AZ for a bit to enjoy the amazing beach weather.

Here's the except part....I've been trying to eat healthy again and get back in the gym hard.  I knew going out of town I may have issues with eating healthy and I did.  Ate junk food, Mexican, and snacks that I have been trying to avoid.  What the hell is wrong with me?  I know to some it is not a big deal and I used to not care.  However, I feel so out of shape now.  Got myself into the best shape of my life two years ago and let myself go.  But, I feel so good when I go....why do I push it away when it benefits everything I do in life?  I guess I just am lazy.  I know it will not be easy, but I need to get back to my old mindset.  Whatever it takes is what I must do!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Moving Forward with a Positive Atitude

Right now it is 11:00pm on a Saturday night.  Been pretty depressed all day.  Didn't do much other than homework and watched TV.  I wanted to go to the gym, but I couldn't bring my fat ass to get out of the house.  Personally, I am frustrated.  How does one go from being a gym rat and going almost every day, to barely even wanting to go.  Every time I do go, I feel great!  I need to get out of this funk!

Tomorrow is a new day!  I am needing to get back to being over organized and creating positive and good habits for myself.  No more skipping out on the gym.  I never realized how important it was to me until I pushed it away.  Lifestyle change is coming!