It's just been one of those days. Things are changing and I will become a better person. Everyone has a hard life sometimes, mine is not any more difficult than another. I know that I have an amazing life, health, family, and.....friends.
I seem to push a lot of "friends" away or if they weren't pushed away they just left because they weren't really my friends. Sometimes I feel like I sabotage my friendships because I am unhappy with myself. I will work on this moving forward.
Today is one of those days that I feel just blah. I know that not everyone can be a friend whom I want to have a friendship and relationship with, but my goal is the ones I do have and want to be part of my life will prosper in the future. My goal is to not allow my negativity or pessimism to show through. In fact, I want all of them to go away. I don't want to be the person that has to be in control of every situation....to make it go my way. I know this is making me miserable. Again, I have all these amazing things around me happening, but I let the little things change my attitude and the person I truly want to be.
For anyone I have pushed away, I am truly sorry. For those who still consider me a friend, family, or acquaintance things will be changing.
Ricky P.
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