Ugh....Weight Gain, Weight Loss, Weight Gain, Weight Loss,etc...

If one has known me for any significant amount of time then one knows I gain and lose weight more than anyone should ever do in their lives.  Today I realized how much weight I have gained....back....again.

Today I went to the store Ross during my lunch to get a new pair of jeans.  The first pair I found I thought would fit and they didn't.  The second pair that I thought would be too big, fit....ugh!!  I want to place blame on Amber's pregnancy as the reason for my weight gain, but it's not.  The blame lies strictly upon my shoulders and it's my own fault.

My weight gain, weight loss and everything is between has always been a mental struggle.  I know how to lose the weight, but sometimes I just don't do what I need to do.  I still continue to workout like a fiend, but my eating habits just suck.  Well during the day my eating habits are great.  It's when I get home or on the weekends that I struggle the most.  I honestly think it sometimes just comes down to boredom.  I end up overeating and not eating the best foods.  I am way to easily tempted by fast and fatty foods.  Ugh...

I have been a gym rat and into the bodybuilding scene since I was in my late teenage years.  I had always enjoyed the working out and getting that "pump" from lifting.  While working for a supplement company while I was finishing my undergrad at Arizona State I was around some amazing people.  They all told me the same thing.  Eat at least every 2-3 hours and eat as much as you can along with lifting hard and heavy to grow.  I ate and I grew.  Not only did I get pretty big, but I also got pretty fat.  It never occurred to me that the food I was eating really should have been healthier.  All I knew is that I was big, fat, and strong.

Looking back I have conditioned myself to continually eat like this and overeat.  I truly believe that eating every 2-3 hours is the best way to lose weight, but it has to be the right food.  I mentally have to transition myself back to eating healthy all the time.  The healthy eating and cardio are the only way I have ever been able to consistently lose or maintain my weight.

2013 is right around the corner.  I will be with family and friends that I love, but I have to do what's right for me.  I need to put myself in the right situations and not allow my temptations to overtake my goals.  I'm not going to talk about my resolutions as it can't just be a resolution.  I understand it has to be a life change.  I know not everyone will understand why, but I have to do what is right for me.